im really trying very hard to please everyone around me,
even people i dont know
cuz i wanna make everyone happy..

to my dearest brother:

dont worry no one would read my blog.
and PLEASE finish reading this.

you once told me the meaning of life is to make everyone around us happy =D
i totally agree with that and i still remember that till now.
and that is exactly what im trying to do now.

you changed for the better awhile ago and i was so glad for you.
but now its back to square one again.
i know you've got a bad temper, mood swings, blah blah..
i used to behave like you do a few years ago,
im sure you know that.

but i think i've changed alot.
for the sake of daddy and mommy, and the people around me.
because im starting to put myself in other people's shoes and feel for them

a couple of people did some nasty stuff to me awhile ago.
but i didnt look them up or hate them.
i just dont think its right to confront or fight or just get revenge.
of cuz i dislike them but deep down inside i hope they'll change.
*this is true okayy, not bullshit

oh yea, and you should try chanting.
it really works.. somehow it does.
im trying really hard to make myself a better person,
so daddy and mommy wouldnt worry for us.

im sure you know mom's got back problems and dad is not really healthy.
and i really want them to enjoy their lives and be happy for us
shouldnt we as sons do our job?

i know its hard or maybe you dont care anymore.
but arent we humans made to love?
start with the people closest to you.

ps: i dont wanna tell you this directly.
cuz its too mushy..  ¶ 12:09 AM